I know what you’re thinking. What the heck does she mean by settling out? You’re right. It makes no sense. Times are so strange. I honestly wish that tomorrow was January 1st, 2021. 2020 has been a wipe, ha ha. Can we just skip to the good part? Anyways, let’s get started.
During COVID-19 everything has changed. Life is still topsy turvy here in NYC and I’m sure it’s crazy elsewhere, too. I’m finally settling in. I’m finally in a groove. This is all taking place…just when we are now starting to talk about re-opening. I’m still getting used to this new normal. I’m not ready to start a new phase of change (although I will have to adapt regardless and I’m prepared to do so). So I’ve settled in…but what about the next part? What about…settling…out? By that I mean how do we progress towards re-opening and changing our way of life for the 2nd time in a very recent period. How do we feel comfortable in such a chaotic and dangerous world/situation? We’ll have no choice. Life must go on, but how do we, in ourselves, prepare ourselves for the unknown and possible danger of the next phase. We must be brave. We must educate ourselves about how to be safe while moving around the city now. What will this new world look like? Will we be quarantined again? So that’s what I mean by settling out. Going out into the world again with whatever confidence in the face of fear that we can after upending our lives by quarantining (which I agree, has been good to do and may be best to continue). For the record, I don’t want the world to go back to the way things were before. Clearly that was not working, and we need to move forward in a different, more positive manner.
Although I am very well aware of the fact that the phrase settling out isn’t a logical term or a regular one, to me it perfectly captures the way that I’m feeling. How are you feeling?
Never was there a more perfect writing prompt for my day today. I know that on here many bloggers write stories, poems, narratives, etc., and they’re beautiful…but for me, personally, I feel much more at ease writing streams of consciousness blog entries. Maybe someday I’ll branch out into fictional stories; I used to love that! But…enough about that! Let’s get on to why the word baggage is perfect for today!
I’m traveling today. I’ve literally got baggage. I’m off on a fun adventure to Washington, D.C.! I’m on the bus, brainstorming about this entry, but trying not to brainstorm too much because it’s my mini vacation! Now, for those of you who don’t know, the trip from NYC to D.C. is not a long one. It’s about 4-5 hours by bus, and I do the trip rather frequently. I go to visit my boyfriend who currently lives there (but hopefully someday soon he will be back in NYC, which is where we first met). I haven’t seen him in a while. I’m ecstatic to jump into his arms and kiss him! He’s unique, funny, intelligent, and I love him madly! When I’m with him, I don’t feel so much “baggage” in the figurative sense of the word (but clearly I’ve got it….literally…when I’m with him, haha). When we’re together, both of our lives run smoother, are more free, and we’re always laughing. 🙂 When we’re apart, sometimes those things don’t come as easily. Although this is true, in a strange way I feel that this experience makes us stronger as individuals and as a couple. You truly find out what your heart is made of when you decide to live so far apart. It will only work if you find the person who helps you work through your past baggage and stays by your side emotionally, because you don’t have the ease of dashing to their apartment on a whim. It will also only work if you choose someone who is clear and good with their communication. Communication is key in any relationship, but especially in a long distance one. Talking about previous baggage and getting it off your chest and then seeing that person wholly support you and remain by your side, help you work through it and not run away: now THAT’s a keeper, no matter how close or far apart you live. 🙂