Ha ha! Windbag! What a great word for today! We have lots…of examples of windbags over here, without mentioning names, lol. Blowing lots of hot air; just full of it; flying high on hot air, itself. In fact, hot air is the only thing keeping it afloat, like a kite. The kite won’t work without all of the air buoying it from underneath. Without the air, the kite can’t fly, but take the air out from under its wings and the kite stays grounded…food for thought?


Calm during the Madness

Today I forced myself to get out for a brief walk in the park to give my body some much-needed exercise. The scenery did not disappoint! I’ve been writing a fair amount during my quarantining due to Covid-19 in NYC and social distancing, but today I needed a break. I hope the picture I took at my local park makes you happy!

RDP: Flounder

Flounder. That’s an interesting word. I’d like to say that I’ve pulled up my bootstraps and fought my way through this with a smile on my face. Honestly, floundering is something that is hard not to do. At this moment it seems like the Big Apple is unrecognizable. I look out my window and it looks like a New York City I don’t know. It’s…devoid of people and energy. It’s…not NYC. I can only hope that everyone is at home re-configuring their lives and succeeding in the best way possible. Truthfully, this is the first time that I’ve gotten myself to the page. It’s a whirl of craziness even though everything is so still. Thousands and thousands of New Yorkers have all of the sudden become unemployed and the city is doing it’s best to accomodate all of that. It has put a massive strain on the infrastructure of the city, and we are all struggling to get through. We have quickly become the location with the highest amount of cases in the US and times are very uncertain. The interesting thing is, we will not be defeated. NY’ers…are tough, diligent, strong, and courageous. It’s been incredible, the way that the community has shown love during this time. I’m proud of my co-workers and proud of my city. NYC strong. We can do this. It may be dark now…but it will be light in time.

Photo credit: Alexis Azabache. Follow Alexis on twitter: @alexazabache1


Breathe in,

Breathe out.

Breathe in,

Breathe out.

As life grows more tense,

Here in NYC,

As the city feels,

Like the world is crashing down around us,

I find myself going deep within.

It is a constant reminder,

To breathe in,

Breathe out.

I tell myself,

We will get through this.

This, too, shall pass.

Breathe in,

Breathe out.

I try to calm the worries.

I try to slow the world around me,

By centering myself when need be.

We are in this as a planet.

We are in this together.

I close my eyes,

And I imagine,

Breathing in,

And breathing out.

Lots of love to my fellow…well…everyone out there. Times are going to be very hard, but we will prevail. We must. I’d love to say I’m some sort of zen master, but that’s just not true…Ironically, as I was writing this poem, I was constantly envisioning Star Trek’s Vulcans and their serene nature. I know that’s off topic, but I hope it gives you all a chuckle during these pressure-filled times. Have a great night!

P.S. Somehow I’m on a night sky beach phase. Maybe it’s my body telling me that I need to listen to that when all of this is over and travel is safer. Hmmm…

RDP Thursday: Camouflage

Camouflage…camouflage…what to say about that? I mean…that’s quite a…militaristic word…right? At least that’s what it brings to mind for me. I guess that’s the stereotypical way of thinking about it. I guess that camouflage can really bring up several different things. For instance, right now I’m watching a certain…reality show…on Netflix; you know, the ones about the kinds of peoples’ lives that you will probably never live; where expensive cars are simply a given in everyday life, where designer clothes are bought at the snap of finger: that kind of show. It’s fun to watch because the thought of being so carefree about money is nice and some of the people are cool, but at the same time I find myself remembering that there is a lot of camouflaging going on. I’ve worked a bit of reality tv before as an actress, and the truth is that there’s a lot about reality tv that isn’t real. TV angles are decided beforehand sometimes, things are lightly decided upon before the cameras start rolling, etc. It’s true, that some of the things that happen are reality, but in truth there’s a lot of camouflage that goes on in order to give the audience a certain perception of reality. It’s the “pretty” reality. Camouflage can be used in the literal sense, like in the military, but it can also be used in plain sight to hide the truth. Camouflage is an illusion. In other words, camouflage can be used in broad daylight. People camouflage themselves all of the time. They pretend to be something or someone that they are not, whether it’s good or bad. I don’t mean all people, but some. The reason I’ve brought this up is because reality tv provides a sense of camouflage for reality. You think that what you’re watching is real…but is it? When you’re watching reality tv shows it’s interesting to see the confessionals compared to what’s said in the group settings. Sometimes people are caught saying one thing to your face and another when they’re “alone” in the confessional…they do a great job pretending…it’s camouflage in broad daylight…

My Process

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My Process

Thank goodness for Starbucks…I’m always brainstorming new business ideas, blog posts, and how to succeed in life! To check out one of my newest ventures please look at and “like” my store! You’ll get updates frequently, and access to some FABULOUS deals that are tough to find elsewhere! Plus…if you have any questions about e-commerce and how to run your own store I’ll be happy to help. 🙂

My Current View…


It’s currently 12:45 am on the East Coast. I’d love to be in bed. This is my current view. At first glance, you might think “why would she bother to post that?” It’s just a random, blurry building. Well, I had this thought on the way home from my job: this is what I do to make my dreams a reality. I should document this. These moments are part of what makes me who I am. When I first started this blog, I told you it would be about my adventures in this crazy city. Well, sometimes adventure isn’t always a fun thing. Dreams take work. They take sweat, and, as Debbie Allen put it in Fame “and right here’s where you start paying.” This is my view after working a very hot, sweaty, tough night shift that ended quite late. I’ll be back tomorrow. And the next day. And countless days/nights after that. It’s what we do as artists to survive (and not only artists do this, I’m sure). It’s hard. We work til all hours to pay for those lessons, make those auditions, get those head shots, put food on the table…and you know what? It’s all worth it. It builds tough, strong people. It builds a lot of character. So cheers to random sights at odd hours of the day. They’re good reminders that you’re following your dreams, you’re making the sacrifices, and you’re living with passion. For that you should feel good. Sleep well. You deserve it, dream followers.

Daily Prompt: Assume

You know, there’s something funnIMG-1698y about assumptions (and I say that in an ironic way, with a chuckle of sarcastic laughter). It’s funny because you think that you know the answer to something (anything, really), and in the end you sometimes make an ass of u and me. Get it? I’ve assumed many things in my life. I’m not proud of it, but it’s true for all of us, I’m sure. Today I assumed that I was going to make a certain amount of money at work. Well…I got cut from my shift early and ended up having most of the day off. So…I assumed wrong. What I didn’t assume was that I’d get to enjoy the day eating ice cream, blogging, and playing piano! But…now back from my momentary tangent. While thinking about this prompt, I couldn’t come up with any positive thoughts about the word assume. I also realized that duh, not everything has to be spun in a positive way, but that’s another story for another day. I do want to tell you something about assumptions, though…

They can limit us. As I said, I have assumed many times in life, and usually it’s been about my own abilities as a performer or how an audition will feel or turn out. You see, two days ago I had a casting for something that I’d never tried before: fit modeling. I’m not sure how many of you know what fit modeling is (it’s different than fitness modeling), or maybe I’m entirely wrong and you do. Fit models are those confident souls that stand in while a company or a designer checks to see how their clothing will appear on a certain size and body type of person. It feels like the ultimate body confidence test because you go in and they measure so much of you. It’s like being completely on display and vulnerable to the other person in the room and their opinions. Knowing this, I went into the experience concerned that I would feel insecure because, let’s face it, there’s a lot of unrealistic, unhealthy, negative body requirements and opinions in the modeling industry. It’s true. There’s a lot of horror stories about judgement and I was a bit worried that I would feel judged…but I tried it anyway. I didn’t want my assumptions about what might happen to limit me because there have been so many things that I’ve allowed myself to miss out on. Honestly, I also prepared myself emotionally so that I would deal productively and confidently if any negativity did come my way. I mean, I was not interested in letting anyone else hold sway over my own opinions of my body.

I was so pleasantly surprised when I walked into that office! This woman could not have been more sweet! She was kind, engaging, social, and I felt very comfortable. She created an atmosphere that was enjoyable. It meant the world to me. It’s clear that she’s aware of how uncomfortable that sort of situation can be, and she did a very good job making the experience something I would do again. I’m absolutely not saying that everyone should try things that make them feel uncomfortable. I feel that is entirely a personal journey and each persons’ choices are solely for them to decide about. This choice was right for me. Would it be right for someone else? I don’t know, maybe so, maybe not. Everyone is different, which is one of the reasons that it is always important not to assume anything about others. I’m glad, in this one instance, that I stepped out of my own personal bubble and allowed myself to experience something positive and to meet a new person. Remember…your own opinion of what is right or wrong for you is simply yours and not one for anyone else to decide. Self confidence and self love is important. Don’t assume that you are not exactly what the world needs, because many times you might surprise yourself!